This edition of Just Wondering is partial share, partial desire to be validated. Ha!

Andrew and I were talking about gifts last night when I realized I totally forgot to buy for our Secret Santa cousins gift exchange, in addition to other missing gifts. I thought I was so on top of things with gifts this year—I even kept an updated Word document with all of Santa’s deliveries for our own family! But then, this.

I mean, 2020 has clearly beat the snot out of us, so it’s not shocking that that sense of defeat carries right through to the end of the year. But I was trying so, so hard to be on top of things. Alas, it’s clearly not yet my time to be fully evolved in this way. 😉

This year has brought health challenges; the beginning of my own dig-deeper spiritual journey; tons of adjustments and changes to my site/podcast/brand; and a boatload of stress. So when I look at my forgetfulness through the broader lens all of those challenges, I guess it’s not that bad after all.

But I have to know: Am I the only holiday procrastinator out there?

Anyone else always realize there’s one huge thing you’ve missed, even though you thought you were on top of everything? Please tell me I’m not alone!

Meantime, the above photo is our Christmas card this year. I thought it captured the lesson of this year pretty well: Aim for control, land in chaos, find the fun anyway.

Have a wonderful Christmas homestretch, friends!