Remember in the beginning of the lockdown we aimed high… and, well, maybe a little frivolous, too? Goals like ripped abs; learning rudimentary Russian in three weeks; making sourdough bread weekly.

Well, I’m not here to crap all over that well-intentioned (if myopic) optimism we had at the start of this circus. I mean, really, we had no idea of what was ahead of us. So hopeful! So innocent we were!

In fact I’d be tempted to laugh at our former beamish selves, but given the magnitude of suffering we’ve endured as a planet, now that just seems cruel. Like laughing at a 3-year-old putting on shoes for the first time; we just didn’t know better!

Now it’s safe to say we are at a point in the pandemic where we have accepted what’s happening, but that reality doesn’t make it any easier to swallow.

For me—a person who thrives the answers that processing and analyzing can give—the task of completely understanding this process has been exhausting in every way, precisely because there is no way to understand it.

We don’t know just how bad it’s going to be, when all is said and done. Yes, we have death tolls and transmission rates and plans for shutting down to prevent further spreading, but the challenge there is twofold: One, we are months, if not years, away from knowing those final numbers. And two, there is no way to calculate the most widespread effect of this pandemic, which is the mental and spiritual toll it has taken, both individually and collectively.

All of this to say, times are tough on our souls right now.

I don’t know about you, but I’m spent, spiritually and energetically. It’s the energetic-output equivalent of being at a five-day-long party and introducing myself to someone new every ten minutes—just a never-ending cycle of putting things out into the universe with no time to recover that deficit.

As a result, I’ve been looking for my own answers in the spiritual realm. For me, that looks like tons of prayer, beginner-level meditation (like, super beginner—five minutes a day!), a spiritual counselor and a meeting with an astrologer.

Oh yes, I’m going alllll in. Maybe you even saw last week’s episode of my talk show where I sat down with a medium and spiritual minister to discuss our collective energetic burden, and how to clear it. (Hint: Sage helps!)

And while this may read as squarely hokey to some, to me and many others, addressing our spiritual well-being—independent from our physical and conscious selves that, say, therapy might address—is truly the missing puzzle piece to finding calm.

So that’s where I am right now—looking inward, and upward. In a time where there are no answers, looking inward and sharpening our own intuition and connection to a greater power can help calm and center us for the work that remains ahead of us. Ironically, that may be the only question we have the answer to, and it is, a lot.

So now I ask you, how are you looking for answers these days? Let’s talk! Share our experiences!

Sending you light and love! Please reach out if you want to talk about any of this; I love hearing from you!